It’s weird, but life feels very draining at the moment. All these metaphorical doors are opening, or looking as though they might be opening (in terms of career ideas, mainly), and other doors seem to be closing, and I’m learning a lot of things about myself and about people in general, and unearthing dreams and ambitions I didn’t know I had, and it’s bloody tiring. Add to that the fact that I feel like I’m hardly doing anything with my time, just operating in a kind of ‘maintenance mode’ in my jobs and other activities - I just don’t have the energy to get excited about what I do. Also, I’ve come to the realisation that I’m more-or-less lousy at being an administrator. I guess that’s part of it - I feel bad that I’m not doing my jobs nearly as well as someone else could.